The Way He loves her and her smile

Be expectant of good things, especially when skies are gray; it means you have to endure the storm in order to fully enjoy a rainbow.

Love always,

a girl with a bright smile

Ok…this is so out of character. But I HAVE to blog about it. It’s the best christmas present ever……I just received news that my ex-boyfriend is officially dating the girl he basically was with when he was dating me (yeah, he cheated)!!! This happened exactly a year and a few months ago (us breaking up/she wasn’t the only reason/FYI i dumped him), and now it has come true!!! This means that our promise is officially broken!!!! I knew this already but, I just got more confirmation and I can finally delete and erase memories and traces of him that were physically left in my bedroom and in my skin. The drawings, canvases and letters he wrote will end up in the dump. It feels so gooodddd. I’m in a great place right now, learning and accomplishing so much. My wounds are fading as we speak because God just took me out of that relationship to bring me to new places (it wasn’t the best relationship. It even compromised my spirituality). God had given me a promise to let me know everything will be alright for me, that He was at my side and it took a year for it to be fully completed. I’m so grateful for saying no when he proposed to me. I’m so grateful for my Almighty Healer! He restored me. I’m just breaking down because I held on to God when I had been stripped of every single thing. Someone that was supposed to love me, respect me and care for me said I was nothing. I had nothing. He told me that over and over. Nothing without him. God had to interfere. He rescued me from destruction. God still tries to win my heart! After doing so much for me, a broken girl with a smile upside down. God taught me how to smile again. Looking back at the picture above, I just feel sad for an image that represented so much chaos, confusion and sadness. Oh no, that was not love. That was not a smile. This picture, all a lie.

I’m enjoying my singleness so much, I wouldn’t want it any other way (for now). A new year and new beginnings, that’s all I’m happy for. I hope it all works out for them both. Love is a beautiful thing, it should be treasured and nurtured at the right time, in preparation for marriage. (which they’re not even close, but one could only hope it goes well). I don’t have to break a sweat because God will bring me the perfect guy that fits my needs and that will not only complement me, but my ministry as well. He will pursue me and he will grow to love me with the scars that can only come from a broken past relationship. I trust God completely, even when the enemy tells me I’m not enough. I am. I am more than sufficient in God, and i’m rising up to conquer evil, to win souls for Christ and to fully live smiling.

Goodbye bruises of a so-called love, Hello touch of Salvation and warmth of True Love.

Dear Splenda + Sparrow:

Thank you for the wonderful gifts! I hope you enjoy a much deserved Christmas with your loved ones. Just know that the gift I value the most is my friendship with you girls. You inspire and encourage me beyond words could say. We will speak during our break and will come back refreshed, renewed, and revived for spring.

p.s. Roses make any day better (for both the givers and receiver), especially when there’s no reason at all to give them.

500 days of Summer. <3

allthatjazzmine:

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This is my ideal bike. Except, I would do dark red roses instead of fushia. Regardless, this is my dream bike! =]

500 years ago, God wrote something in the sky. Today, an hour ago, the sky spoke to me the very same message God wrote. It was a display of beautiful stars dancing. I’ve never seen something quite like it before. A meteor shower! My gosh! It inspired me to write a song….but for now, I’m going to sleep on it.

God, you make me fall more in love with you! You and your love letters, dated 500 years ago, How could I not be head over heels? You obviously knew I’d be willing to read it.

Extremely happy and yours,

a girl with a smile

(p.s. God dramatically wanted this day to be special Louis, happy bday)